I know, I haven't been doing this. I think I'll start again. It's the fourth of July so that's always fun. Yesterday I had a funeral. Actually it was my Godfather. What I noticed about funerals is that the most tears are shed by the sandwich generation. Everyone cries, this is true, but the sandwich generation just leaks uncontrollably. I know the reasons for this. We are the generation that is faced with losing our loved ones the most. Also, we are the generation that previously was impervious to such loss (most of us). The shock of finding ourselves in the unhappiness of death and the shape of our lives, hugely busy and responsible, we all just break down. The younger generation is sad, true, but they have a buffer generation between death and themselves. The older generation has been seeing loss for many years. This isn't to say that it gets easier but maybe they are all cried out.

My other observation is that family is a funny thing. I find warmth in seeing people that I've known my entire life. I'm lucky in that my families are huge but loyal. I have around 50 cousins all tallied and when there's a death I see close to all of them. This is unbelievable to me. Also, even though we aren't all close, it's huge that everyone comes together for the short time that life has to stop for death.