So I've been reading the Barbara Kingsolver book about eating local foods. I'd love to try it but alas, my garden is basically 8 tomato plants surrounded by thousands of weeds. So I've been researching where all the grass fed beef is in CT and also where to find the local farmer's markets. There's a farm stand on my way home from work, but that's only going to carry me until the pumpkins are gone. I don't think I have time for any canning.

Well, I'll try to be a better person. Maybe I can buy a few of my dinners at Whole Foods (and starve the rest of the week). There's a farm in Canton that raises grass fed beef. The website wasn't clear if I could just show up there an buy a steak. Somehow I doubt it. I don't know how to deal with 1/2 a cow.

Tonight we have fireworks! Hooray. Let us all put on long pants and socks and traipse through the poison ivy to watch.

I know, I haven't been doing this. I think I'll start again. It's the fourth of July so that's always fun. Yesterday I had a funeral. Actually it was my Godfather. What I noticed about funerals is that the most tears are shed by the sandwich generation. Everyone cries, this is true, but the sandwich generation just leaks uncontrollably. I know the reasons for this. We are the generation that is faced with losing our loved ones the most. Also, we are the generation that previously was impervious to such loss (most of us). The shock of finding ourselves in the unhappiness of death and the shape of our lives, hugely busy and responsible, we all just break down. The younger generation is sad, true, but they have a buffer generation between death and themselves. The older generation has been seeing loss for many years. This isn't to say that it gets easier but maybe they are all cried out.

My other observation is that family is a funny thing. I find warmth in seeing people that I've known my entire life. I'm lucky in that my families are huge but loyal. I have around 50 cousins all tallied and when there's a death I see close to all of them. This is unbelievable to me. Also, even though we aren't all close, it's huge that everyone comes together for the short time that life has to stop for death.